Rediscovering you

We are beings constantly living in the unknown. We can plan everything to a T but that doesn’t always mean the outcome was what we each expected. Every once in a while it may be even better.

I am working towards a trust in myself that I have always questioned. My thoughts have moved in between I know I can do it. To, can I really do it? To, it’s too hard to even try to do it. I think that’s why I always bring people along on my journeys.

I remember being a child and understanding innately that I gain energy by rest and quiet peace. I have always known myself as an introvert. However, as I began not trusting myself and my decisions I have looked to others for support and guidance. It has been a constant turmoil that has followed me. It has bridged the gap to allow me to become an extroverted introvert.

A few years ago I was with a great friend and dear cousin. I had an Aha moment. At this point in time I remember thinking, expectations will be the death of me. I have worked hard to let go of expectations of others and of myself. It is a curvy road to continue to remember this, but when you let go and allow those you love to surprise you reality shifts and happiness can emerge.

I am working on my own independence in so many ways. The last two years with building my business I proved to myself that I can trust decisions that I feel with my whole body. Watching my husband be a father to our children, I can trust decisions I make easily. Watching my children lead with their hearts, I can trust that I am a good enough parent.

I am working on journaling and living a life that is authentically mine. Walking alongside individuals to help gain insight into what has been missing, or ways to heal from the obstacles that life constantly throws at us is a privilege that I can’t explain. To those that have trusted me and yourselves, thank you.

Even as I decide to post this, I think, should I put this in Chat GPT to make sure it is edited and makes sense? No, not today. Today I am trusting myself.